exams are coming soon and its really spoiling my happiness. the workload is horrendous and tiring, and now things are a bit more complicated with family and all.
anyways, just sort of servicing the blog. will write more next time aroung
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Shukor Adnan
Our family driver who has been with us for sixteen good years died suddenly today. He arrived through an uncle's recommendation sixteen years ago for rural Kelantan and become proficient in his job.
He was loyal, hardworking and extremely dedicated to his job. He hardly seemed to tire despite my dad's hectic schedule and played a large role in our family. Work certainly wasn't easy but he stuck through it thick and thin.
He displayed the characteristic honesty and sincerity Malays are known for. He saw me through most of my secondary education, marriage and became friends with my two boys. He was with my family before my youngest brother was born and watched him grow.
His large family migrated to Kuala Lumpur and he did a good job as a family provider. He also recently became a grandfather.
He saw my dad through 4 general elections and was no doubt a big help to him.
As expected, there was sadness and tears all around.
May he rest in peace.
26-5-2009
He was loyal, hardworking and extremely dedicated to his job. He hardly seemed to tire despite my dad's hectic schedule and played a large role in our family. Work certainly wasn't easy but he stuck through it thick and thin.
He displayed the characteristic honesty and sincerity Malays are known for. He saw me through most of my secondary education, marriage and became friends with my two boys. He was with my family before my youngest brother was born and watched him grow.
His large family migrated to Kuala Lumpur and he did a good job as a family provider. He also recently became a grandfather.
He saw my dad through 4 general elections and was no doubt a big help to him.
As expected, there was sadness and tears all around.
May he rest in peace.
26-5-2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
Back again
The whole month passed in a blur, we we nearly as busy as I used to be i HKL. The department was chronically short wit many candidates going for exams, there was the pressure of doing a short charged rooster and tempers did fly more than once. 8 calls, plus occasionaly coming back on your off day saw the month through fast.
Hopefully this month is a bit easy.
I am also starting to feel exam stress and wondering if I can make it through the big one in november. Time will tell.
I do seem to be spending more time with my elder son shastri. He is growing bigger and stronger by the day and more and more defiant when he gets upset. From time to time, he does need a firm hand which only a dad can possess. I am also learning that as a dad, you need to earn respect and lead by example. The baby Arditya is starting to grow. He is much healthier now and really loves me. I just wish I had more time for him.
Hopefully this month is a bit easy.
I am also starting to feel exam stress and wondering if I can make it through the big one in november. Time will tell.
I do seem to be spending more time with my elder son shastri. He is growing bigger and stronger by the day and more and more defiant when he gets upset. From time to time, he does need a firm hand which only a dad can possess. I am also learning that as a dad, you need to earn respect and lead by example. The baby Arditya is starting to grow. He is much healthier now and really loves me. I just wish I had more time for him.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
The end of obs
I just finished my two months of being an amature obstetrics anaesthetist. Other than the sad maternal death, it was fun and gratifying.
I inserted more than 30 labour epidural. Being a person who always seeks instant gratification, a working epidural is highly rewarding, both for me and the patient. I may have inserted for more epidurals in my old place(close to 70 in the same duration), but I actually learned more here. I could hang around each patient longer, troubleshoot and actually ensure better patient satisfaction. I visited my patients through their labour and made adjustments in my epidural drugs. Talking to them through the process and telling them what i am doing seemed to helped.
I had my share of screw-ups which contributed to the learning curve!
Of course there was more to the posting than epidurals but to write about everything will fill many-many pages. I guess there are always two attitudes we can have when we are doing the same stuff; been there, done that or lets see what i can learn/re-learn.
I inserted more than 30 labour epidural. Being a person who always seeks instant gratification, a working epidural is highly rewarding, both for me and the patient. I may have inserted for more epidurals in my old place(close to 70 in the same duration), but I actually learned more here. I could hang around each patient longer, troubleshoot and actually ensure better patient satisfaction. I visited my patients through their labour and made adjustments in my epidural drugs. Talking to them through the process and telling them what i am doing seemed to helped.
I had my share of screw-ups which contributed to the learning curve!
Of course there was more to the posting than epidurals but to write about everything will fill many-many pages. I guess there are always two attitudes we can have when we are doing the same stuff; been there, done that or lets see what i can learn/re-learn.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
The most efficent army
During a hiking trip(another story) I was talking to my friend, a Burmese, about the conditions back home. I am always interested in the lives of people in other countries and I like to ask basic and silly questions like "do you guys have traffic lights" or "what do you eat for breakfast".
During the course of our conversation, I discovered that the whole country is run by the military. They have their own cabinet, their own departments and their own state run companies. The burmese army is multi-talented.
They can control agriculture, telecommunications, the banking system, the health and education system and about everything else in the country.
They can also deal with naughty people well. Trials don't run for ages-ages like they do in many countries. Almost all trials are short and sweet, almost like formalities.
The army is running the country on its own and it must be an uphill task,since they are facing economic sanctions. Their health care system is not bad, basic but providing pretty much all the medical needs of the population. There are many well trained burmese doctors working in our country and they can attest to that.
They had one major problem in 1990, when they lost the elections. They dealt with the problem in a novel and original way, they didn't hand over power and the head of the coalition that won is still under house arrest.
I just wonder whether all in the ruling party are of one mind, or do they have their own internal power struggles and strife's? Who inherits the position of the head of state and how is the selection process?
We are an open democratic country. But do we have our pride intact? We and pretty much
every other small nation have to face human rights accusations from the mighty and oh-so morally superior US. They got very angry when one of our politicians was subjected to a police investigations.
We so very spoilt and dependant on their buying power to keep us comfortable. I am not saying and over authoritative government is good, but sometimes I think our government lacks a strong backbone.
Soft parents breed rude spoilt children.
During the course of our conversation, I discovered that the whole country is run by the military. They have their own cabinet, their own departments and their own state run companies. The burmese army is multi-talented.
They can control agriculture, telecommunications, the banking system, the health and education system and about everything else in the country.
They can also deal with naughty people well. Trials don't run for ages-ages like they do in many countries. Almost all trials are short and sweet, almost like formalities.
The army is running the country on its own and it must be an uphill task,since they are facing economic sanctions. Their health care system is not bad, basic but providing pretty much all the medical needs of the population. There are many well trained burmese doctors working in our country and they can attest to that.
They had one major problem in 1990, when they lost the elections. They dealt with the problem in a novel and original way, they didn't hand over power and the head of the coalition that won is still under house arrest.
I just wonder whether all in the ruling party are of one mind, or do they have their own internal power struggles and strife's? Who inherits the position of the head of state and how is the selection process?
We are an open democratic country. But do we have our pride intact? We and pretty much
every other small nation have to face human rights accusations from the mighty and oh-so morally superior US. They got very angry when one of our politicians was subjected to a police investigations.
We so very spoilt and dependant on their buying power to keep us comfortable. I am not saying and over authoritative government is good, but sometimes I think our government lacks a strong backbone.
Soft parents breed rude spoilt children.
Friday, February 27, 2009
BAD CALL
I cant believe a pregnant mother died in front of me. When I look back, there were a few more things I could have done in a better way. I knew things were going to turn bad for her before anyone had a clue. I couldn't word it, I couldn't point anything abnormal out and she was so fine. She looked okay in every one's eyes but mine. This doesn't make me feel gifted or clever in anyway. On the contrary, I am kicking myself. I choose to ignore my instinct and rather than watch over her like a hawk. I told myself its just some silly paranoia. If I had listened to my instinct, will things have turned out differently? I will never know. Was she medically salvageable? No one will ever find out.
The worse part is that I am no amateur in sensing danger. I have repeatedly done it. I can literally smell trouble. Sounds even more silly when I ignored my intuition ,doesn't it?
Our brain is capable of many weird and wonderful things we are only beginning to understand. Everybody has some degree of intuition. Even cows and goats can sense when they are going to be slaughtered. Practically every woman who was a victim of a sexual crime will tell you that she felt hunted the whole day. Good cops can sense when their quarry is near. Likewise for the crooks!
What happens when we repeatedly ignore our intuition, instinct, sixth sense or whatever we call it? The same things that happens when don't use a muscle. It will inevitably atrophy.
On another note, I learned how much I am capable of. Despite my inner turmoil, I somehow managed to work as usual after the tragedy. When I am a specialist, if such an incident happens to one of my medical officers, I will make sure he/she gets off duty straight away. Its common sense. In any other place, that is standard protocol. As I mentioned before, I am working in a special place with lots of fun, excitement and challenges. The other thing that sort of kept my spirits up was the thought of my friends who sprung up from all over the hospital to help. Thanks guys.
The worse part is that I am no amateur in sensing danger. I have repeatedly done it. I can literally smell trouble. Sounds even more silly when I ignored my intuition ,doesn't it?
Our brain is capable of many weird and wonderful things we are only beginning to understand. Everybody has some degree of intuition. Even cows and goats can sense when they are going to be slaughtered. Practically every woman who was a victim of a sexual crime will tell you that she felt hunted the whole day. Good cops can sense when their quarry is near. Likewise for the crooks!
What happens when we repeatedly ignore our intuition, instinct, sixth sense or whatever we call it? The same things that happens when don't use a muscle. It will inevitably atrophy.
On another note, I learned how much I am capable of. Despite my inner turmoil, I somehow managed to work as usual after the tragedy. When I am a specialist, if such an incident happens to one of my medical officers, I will make sure he/she gets off duty straight away. Its common sense. In any other place, that is standard protocol. As I mentioned before, I am working in a special place with lots of fun, excitement and challenges. The other thing that sort of kept my spirits up was the thought of my friends who sprung up from all over the hospital to help. Thanks guys.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
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