I went through most of my blog and I realise that most of my blog/life is work related. I guess that's how most adults spend their life. However, its certainly not about living life to its fullest. Its easy to lament that vacations and holidays are hard to come by but, if I try hard enough I can put together a couple of hours a day for my wife,kids, gym , dog and doing other routine stuff.

I shall certainly make the effort.

When I see several of my ICU patients and the state they are in, I do worry about myself. Rest, relaxation and hobbies are something that need to be enjoyed on a daily basis and not something that's been put of until after retirement....some of us may become seriously ill just at time and that throws a spanner in the works.

I recently met up with one of my old friends M, he is a legal moneylender now but has been through quite a bit. Days of working the club doors at nights, collecting money for loan sharks, going to jail for firearm offences and finally a fallout with his old cronies. You would think he would look old and haggard after all this. He doesn't, truth be told, I have aged more that him! And he has left me miles behind in the bench press department. His age, 44!

I believe its because of his priorities. If any job takes him away from his wife, kids and gym for extended periods of time, he leaves and goes back to a meagre existence of 'cukup-makan'.

I am sincerely trying to be the best at what I do. Many people are better than me in my job and I really try to improve and emulate them. The question is, why? And and what cost?